Tag Archives: heartbreak

I Thought You Were My John Wayne

On perfect nights we would lay outside of the Lex on 19th and Lexington in the mission of San Francisco. We’d watch the lesbians come out of the bar, my favorite ones dressed in boyโ€™s clothes with fedoras. I would secretly be attracted to them and I would lean in your ear and tell you. […]

I’m in love with the deleted scenes.

Found this old writing I had posted on Goodreads. Its rare I look back and really love something I wrote. But I’m happy for this. One good thing that came from a time of heartbreak. oh maude, its all my fault. i gave you your name. and i created you out of film. i gave […]

i broke my own heart…

I think I broke my own heart. Sometimes something takes 3 years. I wish I knew how human minds work. I wish I knew how our hearts work too. There’s so much science but they’ll never get it right. There’s always a new case study. Someone new doing something so differently.ย  It was just a […]

somebody else’s train

I jumped on a dead end train. I knew full well it wasn’t going anywhere. But I made myself at home on his couch. Tried to run my fingers through his hair. Even when the conductor made his announcement. Told me all of his secrets. Told me just how likely this train was going to […]

oh sailor…

the potential start of something… We had these blonde wigs. I even don’t know how it all started. I think we wanted to be someone else for a day. We’d put them on and stroke our hair. I marveled at what a good blonde I’d make. You’d laugh at the fact that you were already […]

the spill…

You let me go. It was kind of like when a glass just slips from your hands. But I didnโ€™t slip. You let me go. And I fell. Most people are in it for the destruction. They turn back so they can catch a glimpse of the crash. The glass breaking. The spill. But you […]

it’ll happen again.

something old that needed to see the light… Sometimes you take what you take. Terrible loves and you walk away with nothing. Or do you? A broken heart? Yes. But a waste of time? You decide. So this is what I take from you… I wrote some of my best pieces of writing during that […]